TiMe To GRoW!!
Artist: Lemar
Song: Time To Grow
Album: Time To Grow 
Last night I tried but I couldn't sleep
Thoughts of you were in my head
I was lonely and I needed you next to me
Life is harder since you left
I never meant to do you wrong
And now all is said and done
I hope you won't be gone too long/ No
Chorus:
Where do I go
What do I do
I can't deny I still feel something
And girl, I wish you could say you feel the same 
You've broken the bond
I gotta move on
But how do I end this lonely feeling?
You've gone, I'm here, alone
I guess it's time to grow
I try to speak, but my words never catch the air
Like you never knew I was there
Take me back to the days when you really cared
Can we make love re-appear?I can't go on the roads too long
And now all is said and done
I can't go forward if my heart's still where i'm coming from
Chorus
Crying time is over
I know I can't control her feelings
If she won't return
then I guess I'll be a man
and move on
Time to grow / And move on
Make life better than it was before
Time to grow and move on
Make love better than I did before (repeat)
Though you've gone / And I'm here, alone
I guess it's time to grow
p/s: Tx....
Outstation again...
Temburong.. aku datang lagi..
6am : Bangunpagi. Gosok gigi. Pi mandi. Bersiap untuk ke Temburong.
7:15am : At the RIPAS jetty.
7:20ish : Ceta2 wif the nurse at the jetty yg also kan ke Temburong. Berapa laaama?? Ouhss.. sehari semalam?? Oicc..
7:30am : Dalam boat. Ooooo.. another one hour ish journey to Temburong. Ramai Doctors la this time round ke Temburong, rombongan ker apa ni? Can see the specialists as well.. oh well, must be the Specialists day out.. muahaha
7:35am : Boat speeding to Temburong. Me already pakai my MP3 player, ditemani dengan kebingitan suara outboard yang syahdu, mengisi lobang telingaku. Uwahhh!!
7:40am : Aikz.. berhenti sekejapz ke Subok jetty, ambiks somemore non hospital passengers. Yeah jugak kan, takkan the boat operator nak rugi goin to Temburong with half passengers.
7:45am : On d way, lalalala.. listening to my MP3. Closed my eyes. Oblivious to the world.
7:55am : Opsss.. another stop, Immigration post somewhere. Cehh.. I wanna sleep in my bed...
8:20am : On our way again. Listening to my fave music n closed my eyes, remmebered my school days, trip to Belalong Forest Reserve. Best! Went there when I did my A levels. So young! For 3days we spent our time at the forest reserve. And the ants! I will never ever forget the ants! Huge!! Macam jari kelingking ah.. but they r herbivores, so they do not bite. Plus the first time ever in my life I had to do my presentation in frot of peepz. Hehehe.. memories!
8:45am : Sampai di Temburong jetty. We have jeeps waiting, so whisked off to the hospital very fast. 
8:50am : XRay unit, PIHM Temb Hospital. The other staffs,w ell only two, are smiling at me. I still wanna go back to Bandar hehehe
9ish : Ada patient. Chest Xray. Tarik napas maciii.. tahannn...
910am : Catched up the latest gossip with Tainun. Yeah rite.. Linda J atu tah.. fuiyooo.. muahaha Liyat news.. etc
10am : Took out my Siti Nurhaliza in Concert London vcd and me n Tainun watched together.. Fuiyooo.. wat a boring opening, she should ave done a fast number for the opening lah.. mmmm
10ish : Gossip wif Tainun while still watching Siti in concert. The other staffs tengah kupas-kupas bawang kat belakang wif another amah. Untuk doktor ah, inda ku tahu. malas ya kan mengupas kali di rumah.. Ouhs.. salah guna staffs ka Doktor di Temburong ani? Muahahaha..
11ish : Tainun kuar kan bejalan dengan hubbie kajapz. Me pasan Borneo Bulletin. Still liyat Siti in Konsert. Aiyahh, Siti so sexy, she is wearin this dress which is so tight, that we can see her petite little bottom, wahh so sexy lahh!! Muahaha
11:30am : Frank the ex-staff here, now waiting fot his last paycheck from the Minsitry came around. Nice surprise. Gossip again with him. So bad la we all, gossip saja inda beranti wif Kak Murah. I just listened and menyampuk sana sini. Muahaha no wonder sometimes the staffs in RIPAS say me ani suka menyampuk hahaha.. but fun aint it dangar gossip2 ani..
12ish : Frank gone. Bye-bye Frank, maybe my last time I see you, you goin back to Manila soon..
12ish : Tainun datang, bawak Borneo Bulletin.
12:15pm : Tainun gone to see her operator fren.
12:15pm onwards : Watched Siti in concert, with Kak Murah. Diselang seli dengan gossip hangat dipasaran.
1pm : Finito concert. Bored to death. Kak Murah n Tainun nowhere to be seen. Sekali sekala could see Kak Murah jalan mundar mandir di luar.
2pm: Staffs balik. Ok.. selamat Raya.. eh jumpa lagi tani tu, next month will still be coming over to Temburong muahaha..
2ishpm : Me officially alone. Sleep time
3pm : Went to A/e unit. Looked for the driver. Bawak ke Bangar bali penyungkaian.
3:03pm: Di gerai ramadan. Kita inda turun pakcik? Ohhss.. bah, kita tunggu saja ah.. inda batah..
3:04pm : Looking for food. Mmmm.. yummyy.. ambik dat nasi Ayam.. $2 lah.. looks nice.. mmmm.. Ani seringgit ah... the mee goreng halus.. yummy.. I learnt my lesson, cannot buy lotssa stuffss.. inda abis tu.. muahaha
3:15pm : Masuk jeep semula. Eh laju juwa? Awu pakcik.. inda payah banyak2 hehee
3:17pm : Back at the unit, am bored.
3:18pm Onwards: Watched Tv, limpang2, termenung, berfikir, tukar2 sms..
5pm ish: Made MMS, wif voice recording. Wahh.. first time I made wif voice recording hahah
Posing sanna sini. Eh bida.. pose lagi hehehe..
5:18pm: Sent MMS
5:20pm : Got reply. Muahaha.. thanx..
5:20onwards : Getting ready for sungkai..
6:10iish... SUngkai.. yumyum, kanyang!!!!!!!!!! Rehat!!
6:30ish : Bored, showered.
7pm : Watched TV. Sms.. watched TV.
730pm - 9pm : Phoned and hassled my friends, colleagues and cousins. Muahahahaha.. hilangkan.. ceritakan betapa ku boring di Temburong.. arghhh..
9ish : Put on cd AF3 raya. Song along with them especially Fuad and Elina.. Bermulalah sudah Ramadan, sebulan berpuasa... No one can hear me lah, hahahha.. siyuk sendiri aku ahh...
10ish : Watched TV, baca newspaper balik2, watched TV. Sms people.
12am : Still restless.. uwaaaa.... limpang2 atas katil
3am : Terbangun! I fell asleep rupanya.. hehehe Tidur2 ayam..
5:30am :Tebangun again, woke up and get ready to leave.
5:45am : Pagi2 buta basuh dishes. Di periuk cannot be basuh sal mee goreng atu melakat, made a note for the next guy to come along to basuh.. wat to do? Randam the periuk...
6am : Woke up nurse, bagi kunci Xray unit.
6:01am : Woke up the driver. Awal juaa.. Kana antat ke jetty.
6:04am : At d jetty. 
6:15am : Nampak a fren who works at the jetty boat arriving for work.
6:20am : Registration at booth buka. Wrote down my name. Awal juwa kita balik? awuuu.. hehehe.. Kereta baru ko ah... hehehe
6:30am : On my way back to civilisation hahahaha
6:30-730am : lalalalala.. Listening to my MP3 player, oblivious to the world, closed my eyes n think...
735am : Sampai at RIPAS Jetty...
7:37am : Saw the nurse whom i chatted wif yesterday, She smiled. Baru balik? Smiled back.. Awuuu...
7:40am : In my car, ready to go home.
7:45am : Arrived home.. Oh home sweet home....
Sunkai at Nyonya Restaurant later... yehuuu..
Aun came about my insurance plan as well...
9 MoRE DaYz??
9 More Days b4 Raya?
Is it? Deepends la if the anak bulan can be seen or not. Not ready for raya actually. Havent gone out shopping yet for stuffs. Actually i ave no idea wat to buy? Maybe cucul?
Reformated my PC last week, mmm but lambat juwa masih, cant seem to download Yahoo or even this Blogger page! Horrible! A colleague actually thinks it might be my RAM, oh well, its 512MB of RAM, it's really strange kalau lambat, and I am using e-speed. Cant even upload photos to my blog. So that explains why there's no pics! Geeshh.. taken some photos.. but cannot upload.. nantitah bila this PC ok.. I will upload hehe..
Today I juz finished my night shift, seven days in a row work! Yehuu.. made it at last! Tired memang la tired, bulan posa as well. I think I am losin weight pasal my talipinggang longgar as well, kena pakai lubang yg di dalam .. u know wat I mean.. the next lubang.. ishh..
So tomolo am gonna head to KB! Also gonna get the sushis yg ku pasan from Tony! yehuu.. sushis for sungkai! Heading to Temburong as well next Wednesday ani, mmm not really looking forward to dat, anyone boring work day in Temburong. Geeshhh...
Gaji kuar bila ah? Tomolo or lusa? Not sure.. but someone told me on the 26th this month, not that I am waiting eagerly for gaji, but I dunnoo.. siyuk juwa kalau gaji kuar awal this month.
Waiting for this weekend.. mmmm..
SELaMaT MeNYamBut NuzuL Al QuRaN
SELAMAT MENYAMBUT NUZUL AL QURAN TO ALL MY MUSLIM BLOG READERS..
Ikan Asam Pedas
Bahan2
1 pack amway asam pedas pack
Ikan
Ladies finger
How to make
Tumis the asam pedas pack thingy, taruh aying, pastuh masukkan ikan, then masukkan ladies fingers.
So easy!! 
For sungkai today at RIPAS!!
RestLess NiTe
Work! Supposed to be having two staffs for the 'SCREENING' examinations today. But my partner has either important stuffs to attend to, leaving me, well, alone. Well, not exactly alone, since ada penggantinya. But since four cases to do, and wif Dr sankar as well, I'm quyite happy to handle all the cases myself! Dats me.. I can survive! Am a survivor!!
Couldnt sleep last nite. Thinking alot about stuffs. Did some reshuffling! My God!! Insomnia! I hate it! turning in my bed all thru the nite, and early morning! Woke up, looked at the PC screem! haha.. of course no one chat at the wee hours of the morning. No one in their right choice of mind neway. I mean, not unless ur not working or watever... or ur not working the next day..
Wat time is it now? Oh No! i didnt close my eyes eversince last nite! tried to rest a bit, wow! I really can stand not sleeping? I better eat some 'ubat batuk' later! Muahaha..
Supervising my bro's boutique in the evenings. Well, try to. One of my jobnow during this fatsing month. Just helping him out. Just need to check that the 'dressmakers' are really working 'overtime', to finish off the dresses, baju kurungs, kebayas, etc. Even my baju melayu is on their last list of garment to be sewn. hehe.. hope its ready by raya!
Ouhs.. got a bit of surprise today, GMinz's mom is actually my sister's teacher in Seria. Long time ago I guess.. Wow! Wat a small world this is!
Waited for a replyy.. an sms reply .. got the answer after a while! No worries, UNDERSTANDABLE! Mmmm...
Hectic Dayz
Been a while since I have posted anything here. Tell u guyz the truth, I have been busy and tired!! Dead tired! yes, tired like I juz 'slum' in my bed and dont wanna get up for a long, long time!! Not forever though! I still wanna be alive n kicking!! Muahahaha..
Its been a hectic week! Was workin like, 7days in a row, non-stop, and my sleep hours are disrupted. Mana kan jua, its my shift work plus my office hours schedule as well. After nite shift, sambung lagi keraja pagi. I didnt sleep well!! Its like so bad! I've got insomnia at some nites as well.. mcm inda mau tidur. Then saur? yeah rite.. i guess I juz had saur like once.. yupz.. once this month! Well, its not through to the full month yet, but I guess i am juz too lazy nor had the energy to wake up at 3 in the morning to makan!! I'd rather eat like early in the evening and eat lotssa stuffs then..
Comotion at the office as well. I dunno who to side. I am, well, as u say, in the middle! Its about the work schedule mostly! Lotssa people on leave, then we have staffs who only do office hours, due to various reasons, thus leaving us 'orang bujang' and able staffs to do all the nite shifts n temburong routine! Arghh, wat a mess!! Then there's also this unfair thingy about 'day offs'. Think about it, workin on a Friday or Sunday? 24 hours oncall till the next day in temburong on either of that day.. two day offs shud be given instead of one. But the seniors doesnt think dat is rite! Eventhough our seniors in the past (these guys are new!) always give us two days off!! Its not workin one day in Friday!! Its 24hour duty my friend! Till the next day!! friday and Sunday are considered to be public holidays! We are not supposed to work!! Any money involve if we work 'overtime'? NOOOO!!! Only 'day offs' are given!! This month roster really sucks!! Big time!!
Next week, arghh, starting tomolo will be workin till Monday morning!! Shifts malam plus the usual 'office hours'! Hellew, dats like 7 days in a row!! day offs? The next week. Come on!! its the fasting month and this business of working really hard is making me sick!! I do not mean literally, I dont feel well now!! Am I losing weight? Mmm hopefully not!! I cant!!
Plus someone is getting on my nerve as well! Arghh..
Didnt go home yesterday as well, the last time I was home was on the first day of Ramadan! Goshh, aint that great! Bloody great, thats wat I say! I was too damn tired actually! Yes, tired, 'slum' in my bed n rest! Actually today I get to sleep till noon! Hurrayyy.. for the past few days i actually dragged myself out of bed! Always on time for work though.. keep that smile on my face, n work! Hey, patients are not 'lower grade', second class citizens to be played at! they human beings and need to be greeted n acted by respect. Well, I dont wanna get a complain, I still wanna have that 'bonus' money by the end of January next month!! Ouhzz.. I want a holiday!! Somewhere!! Where theres new faces, new places.. wat a wonderful thought..
Sungkai? Well, managed to go out Sungkai at some restaurants. Blue cafe.. $8.88 a person? Strange price aint it? Doesnt dat mean lucky or something in chinese? As in 4? 4 means death, in chinese, or something like dat? Ouhss sorry ah, to that someone, i do not know 4 means 'mati'. Feel bad a bit.. But its still a nice littel number rite? Fratinin Cafe, nice place to eat, the one near that Sungai Kianggeh, cant believe 2 pizzas, big size, plus 'order' of our own!! watch out for ur belly Tone!! Tx 4 belanja as well...
Oh well, dats my thoughts for today, I think I balik kampung tomorrow after work. My mom keeps calling asking if I am going home.. tomorrow then. Doing my laundry as I write. Later goin out to Wecan cafe. Hope its nice. Oh yeah.. imagine, went there a few days ago, didnt book a seat, the waitress brought us to a table, where 4 people have reserved that table!! Two chairs are empty, and she expects us to sit there. of course I mind. If I dont mind, does she thinks the other 4 strangers who reserved that table wont mind? My God, she does think only about money!!
Ok lah, till here. My thoughts for today. I think I need a hugz..
SeLaMaT BeRPuASA!!
Ramadhan tiba lagi!!! It starts on the 5th of October this year. First day ramadhan, me ke KB as usual, kalau ada time untuk balik kampung, me balikz kampung. Singgah di pekan Seria bali penyungkaian. Then tunggu sungkai time!! heheh Food macam biasa, juz ala2 kampung.. but sedapz.. even ikan yang ku bali di tamu not habis kana makan!! hehehe rezeki eh.. kalau usulnya sedikit atu macam banyak bila ditambah2 hehe..
SELAMAT BERPUASA !!
Cubalah Untuk Setia - Kris Dayanti
Watched the videoclip of this song fer de first time tonite. Kris Dayanti is so superb!! Err she losts weight??! Neway, the vidoeclip is like, so so tragic!! Especially time she sambut Birthday sorang2 atu, uwaaa.. so sedey!! De lyrics is also so deep... neway, heres the lyric..
Cobalah untuk Setia 
Apalah mau mu kasih
Kau pilih diriku
Didalam hidupmu
Nyatanya ku lihat kini
Tak bisa kau coba untuk setia
Sudah cukuplah sudah
Ku memberikan waktu
kau selalu tak bisa
mencoba untuk setia
Yang selalu ku inginkan
Yang selalu ku nanti
Ku coba untuk mengerti
Apalah arti mencinta
Dan kau harus sadari
Bila ingin bersamaku
Jangan kau coba kau ingkari
Cobalah untuk setia
Masih perlukan ku maafkan
Masih perlukah ku berikan.. waktu
Cobalah untuk setia.. kasihku
Neway, puasa starts on Wednesday.
Outsation In Temburong
After a late nite ( a great one as well ) on Saturday nite, I woke up sleepy on de Sunday morning to go to the jetty in RIPAS Hospital. Awww.. my turn to go to temburong again. 24hours cover de PIHM Hospital saner.. Macam biasa la.. boat lambat sikit.. muahaha.. isi minyak cia, macam-macam. Told to be at de jetty before 730am, but actually kami tulak around 8am. Uishh.. awal saja bangun hehehe.. Ramai juwa la staffs from BSB ke Temburong kali ani, actually all of them participate in the exhibition Perkhidmatan Jabatan Awam there, n only me seorang saja untuk bekeraja.
Sleepy, good thing I had my MP3 player wif me.. dpat juwa dangar. Its a bit less boring now, at least I am listening to something while I closed my eyes and imagine about sleeping in my bed!! Muahahaha... although the sound from the autoboard was blasting thru my ears as well.. basarkan lagi bunyi MP3 player!! Pisan!! Huhuhu... It took about an hour to reach Temburong district by boat, melalui Kampung Ayer, Sg Brunei..
Di pejabat since it was a Sunday, nothing much to do actually except to sit around in the dept n watch TV! But I opted to go back to sleep in the department, but ada satu patient, did the patient n slept till early afternoon. Afternoon.. arghh,. wat boredom!! Huhuhu.. well u guys might say kalau me in BSB me usuallu sorang2 juwa d rumah.. eh, kalau d rumah ada internet kaliah, n I ave my car.. susah2 bley round2 Bandar or go see my cuzens.. hehehe nite time is not as bad, time seemed to fly fast.. slept around 11ish
I literally jumped from my bed today in Temburong!! Muahaha.. woke up at 7am. Actually me tidur2 ayam semalam, maklum la, department punya bed bukannya comfy as my own bed.. i actually woke up twice n turned 'on and off' the airconditioner twice!! Sajuk.. then panas.. sajuk.. then panas.. muahahahaa.. Balik from Temburong made me a cheerful person again hehehe.. its not dat Temburong is bad.. its juz the loneliness there.. which I hate. As usual, the boat to take us back to BSB lambat! Aiyahh.. so I think around 8ish kami tulak ke BSB.
Oh... forgot to tell u guyz.. de Temburong masa on de boat, a makcik told us that, one of the army car, or ist it a truck, tegugur n tenggelam d Sungai temburong ah! Thats why the army are looking a vigil look at the area, sebab ada weapons?? Not sure if the story is aunthentic, but nevertehless, its the most interesting thing to me there.. Back in BSB, stayed a while in RIPAS coz ada Majlis tahlil. So, stayed for a while till 11am before I go back home..
Mmmm.. ngalih juwa ehh..
WONDER IF ANAK BULAN NAMPAK PATANG ANI?? Mmmmm...
